Baby girl

So we found out that we are having a baby girl! We are both very excited/scarred/anxious. It would have been easy to have another boy since we have all the stuff and we know how to do boy. But every mother wants a daughter! I can't wait to talk to her about boys and friends and life. And I can't wait to see Pehrson with a little girl. He is going to be wrapped around her little finger and I don't think he even knows how much he is going to love this little girl. I might embarrass him by saying this, but I thought it was so sweet. He asked me about braiding hair. He actually knows how to braid but he was wondering how to do a certain braid. Just the fact that he was thinking about it made my heart smile. And its a tradition to go out and buy a new little outfit on the day we find out the gender so we went to the store and I was going crazy (how do you not buy the whole store? girl stuff is so cute) Pehrson could tell I was very excited and said I could splurge a little. So we got a couple things. He is already giving into this little girl and I love it!

But just like everything there are worries. Girls are precious and get their feelings hurt too easily. I hope that she is a strong girl in her faith and standards. It is a wicked world and my job is to protect her. I hope I can. I hope I can be a good example to her. I hope she feels comfortable talking to me about anything. I hope that she is a nice girl and is friendly to everyone. I hope she doesn't leave people out. I hope she doesn't get left out. I hope she is happy with who she is and what she looks like. I hope she knows that her Heavenly Father loves her. I hope that she knows Pehrson and I love her.

We can't wait to meet her and hold her and love her.

I was at the Park the other day watching Beck climb on everything, playing with toys and random kids. He is such a happy kid right now. And it is so fun to take him everywhere.

But I was sitting on a swing thinking to myself. I LOVE THIS!! I love being a mom. It is the best thing I have ever done in my life. Just to watch him discover new things and get excited when he figures it out it so amazing. And that smile he gives me is just too good to be true. I feel lucky every day to know him and have him in my family. Right now its hard to imagine loving another one as much BUT i know the second we meet it will be like I never knew life without her. I can't wait for that moment and to get to know her and have her sweet spirit in our home.

We love you so much baby. Beck has been waiting for you to join him! I'm sure that if he could talk he would tell us all about how wonderful you are and how fun you are and maybe what your name is supposed to be?!? =]

But take your time. And know that we love you to the end of the world and back.